I wrote this poem in college and can still struggle with Satan’s lies…
The Grave
Whispers tearing at my ears
To grasp hold of my soul
Wrapping heavy chains around this heart of mine
Turning it cold
Making it hard.
His lies are convincing.
I live each day believing
In a rumor Lucifer’s lips ignites.
Untruths about you God –
Your love Lord.
I fail.
And feel you are disappointed in me.
How can you rejoice me?
Time and time again I turn my back on you.
I grab hold of the hammer
And watch my hand pound the heavy spikes.
Crushing your body
Breaking your heart.
I feel that I don’t do enough for you,
That you begrudgingly forgive me.
I am nobody.
I am nothing.
Why should you care?
How can you say your heart beats faster
At the glance of my eye,
At the mere mention of my name?
Only when I am doing well,
It is then you are pleased with me.
Only when I am full of your spirit,
It is only then you shout with joy.
I am a filthy rag
Dirtier than any other.
Why do you wash me white
With the color of crimson?
I am unworthy,
No one more undeserving than I.
I linger in a pit
That grows deeper each passing day;
Satan himself digs the hole.
I drown in lies about you.
Reach down O God with your saving arm,
Bring me out of this sea of entanglement.
You are greater than the gravedigger!
Help me.
Save me.
Break me.
Hold me.
I want to feel the soft gentle touch of your loving hand
Capturing each tear crawling down my face
As you tenderly preserve them in your bottle.
I long to feel your heart beat with mine
As I lie still in your embrace.
Shield me with your compassion.
Open my eyes,
Peel the scales from them
That I may see my name,
Yes, my name,
Forever engraved in the scars of your hands.
I do not understand.
I cannot comprehend.
Help me.
Save me.
Break me.
Hold me.
By Brenna Naufel
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